Crossroads

Song Of The Day: Tears in Heaven by Eric Clapton

this song is so amazing to me

On this day, in 1986, a boy was born in pretoria. He was born bouncing and happy. My cousin.

He would go on to be the most amazing story teller i have ever come across. Shy but proud, kind, good natured, humble and rebellious in the most innocent way.

His family would laugh at him when he gets hand picked for the choir, and cheer when he becomes the first to own his own business.

On the 8th of July 2007, he would get into the passenger seat of a car being driven by a friend he's only known for 2 weeks. And he would be the only on in that car to not see the sunrise just hours away.

Unfortunatley, in my life, i have lost quite a few family members, but this particular death, just literally took a piece of me with him.

The most painful part is that i had the chance to call him, several times in the weeks he before he went, but i always had something better to do. It kills me.

I hadnt talked to him in 2 years, and the most recent image of him i have in my head is that of his funeral booklet.

God. It was so unfair. And yet all my fault. I should have called him. I should have called you.

To this day, when i talk to his mom, i always wanna ask how he is, because it just doesnt sound real.

My cousin, I know it must have been an awful way to go, and i love you, and i know you couldnt stand that fuss and the crying over the weeks you were taken, but i want you to know that even though i hate that we grew apart, i want you to know you inspire me to never take a single moment for granted. Ever. I know u can see im having a hard time right now. A hard time deciding where and what to do, a hard time being consistant with my love for me, a hard time with adjusting to this new life. But through all this, everyday, i take a minute to realise how short life can be, and how to never ever feel entitled to anything or take anything for granted. PLease dont ever leave me T.B. dont ever forget me, you know i will always have you in my mind and in my heart.

Rock On Kid!

Happy 22nd Birthday honey.

I still wish i had called you.